Today I feel numb, when is it ever going to end? When I write what I feel, other get hurt. What happened to me? Is it OK when others hurt me? Well my selective amnesia works. The moment that someone hurts me or do me wrong, stop talking to me and I don't know why, I do what I am doing now, write it down and forget it ever happened. I'm dammed if I do, dammed if I don't. My blood pressure went down only for it to go up again!
Maybe my old age has turned me into an "I don't care anymore" person. I have revised my books, writing new ones, looking for a Traditional Publisher to republish my book. Whatever happens I will deal with it.
I know of many Seniors that give up, and prune until they die. I will die fighting!
